Darkness 5
Sep. 7th, 2004 01:35 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
kat8chaFeedback: First BtVS/Angel fic, would be welcome. I’ve got BIG plans for it!
Email: Flamespout@hotmail.com
Website: Err… working on that
Distribution: Bigbadzeppo, Xanderslash, Vampyr_Slayerette_Passions, DarkSlash, I Need a Parrot
Notes: Um… Riley kinda disappeared… He’d technically still be in the infirmary and we’d technically be still dealing with Adam but I really don’t want to write around them so Poof! No more Iowa boy or Frankenstein!
Disclaimer: I do not own anyone here! I make no cash! No suing! Suing of the Kitti-chan is bad! Majorly not of the good! I would love to own Xan, Angelus, and my poor Wes but sadly I don’t (sigh). ~ I’d take better care of them then Joss did! Imagine making my Xan into a goofy sidekick and giving Angelus back that pussy soul and killing of my Wesley! I’m still mad about that one. ~
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Xander gritted his teeth as he listened to Buffy blubber to Giles about her love life. Forcing a goofy Xander-grin he spoke calmly to Giles while ignoring Buffy. “Sorry G-man but I’m gonna head home.” If you could call that lousy damp basement a home. “It’s been a hard day, I’ll give you a call tomorrow alright?” Not waiting for an answer he strode to the door, yanking it open and then slamming it shut behind him. Growling he walked towards his house. “Oh, Angel’s gone evil again!” He whined in an imitation of the inconsiderate blonde slayer, kicking a can that had the misfortune to be in his way. “I’m gonna have to stake him! He’s gonna try to kill me again! Oh Giles, Giles make it all better!” Giving the can one final kick he entered his basement apartment only to stop when he spotted Anya standing there holding something in her hand.
“Ahn, much as I enjoy the sex now’s a really bad time.” Xander sighed his eyes catching a hardening in his fuck-buddy’s eyes. Walking down the dilapidated stares the single male slayerette slumped into his fold out couch. “Something you want to say, sorry for the pissy mood I’ve just seen the eviscerated body of my ex.” Closing his eyes he leaned his head back against the couch and tried to pay attention to whatever annoying brash comments Anya would make today.
“I’m leaving.” She stated simply, feeling sorry for the mortal as his eyes snapped open and his head whipped around. It had to hurt.
“Leaving-leaving or going away until Angelus is dead/souled leaving?” The question was quiet but Anya had no trouble hearing it, holding up her power center she watched Xander’s face as understanding flashed across it. “Oh, so leaving-leaving it is.” Slumping down again he looked anywhere but at Anya, deciding to focus on a water stain in the far corner of his ceiling.
“Xander, I understand that you have a lot on your mind but I have to say this and I want you to listen. Being human was hard but you, besides the money, were the best part of it. Thank you for letting me know you, and for interlocking parts with me on a regular basis.” Nodding Anya disappeared in a flash so that the poor boy would not see the faint glimmer of tears in the vengeance demons eyes. Xander slumped farther into his couch wondering just how she had gotten her power center. When Willow had tried to retrieve it… Shit! Willow! She had not been at Giles so obviously she either had not gotten his call or had ignored it. Picking up a phone he hurriedly dialed the number at the dorm.
“C’mon, c’mon!” He mumbled pacing frantically and slamming the receiver down when no-one answered. “Damn it!” Running up the steps he did not both locking much less closing the door as he left the house. Racing to Stevenson hall he practically flew up the steps to Willow’s room. Knocking he bounced as he waited for an answer before throwing it open when he got none.
He was confronted by a spell circle, pieces of a shattered glass ball lying around the room and Tara’s drained body tossed carelessly to the side. “NO!” He shouted wondering why no one looked in to see what was the matter with him. Giving him a few minutes to collect himself he lifted up the phone and dialed a number. “Sunnydale police? I’d like to report a murder…”
Xander spent several hours at the police station and while it had been late afternoon when he got in there it was definitely early morning when he left. After giving them a full report of what he had seen and what he suspected, carefully editing the ‘undead psycho’ pieces out. He had called Giles to give him a ride and the ex-librarian refused to drop him off at his house. Lying in a couch by the research table to young man drifted while his mentor searched desperately for an Orb of Thessulah since the one he had in stock had been smashed when Willow had been abducted. His other personalities were howling to get out, literally howling in the hyena’s case, and he needed to focus his energy inward instead of focusing on the outside world. Giles left him alone believing that he needed time to grieve, which the older man was holding off on until Angelus was contained. Buffy was going to attend her college classes because Giles had convinced her that was where her responsibility lay at the moment. Angelus would be dealt with in time it was no reason to let her grades lapse. Plus there was not much hunting she could do for Angelus in the day, when he would be hiding from the sun’s rays. Minions would too so that wasn’t a way to get any information and Willy the snitch… Images filled Xander’s head-
**Rending the flesh from the bartenders bones**
**Crushing his hand into a pulp**
**Poking out his eyes**
**Blindfolding him and grilling him for information, punishing him when disappointed**
**Expertly pressing pressure points as he screamed for mercy**
**Shooting him repeatedly**
**Ripping out his tongue**
**Eating his heart**
“NO!” Xander flung himself out of his stupor shuddering from the sensations that those visions had caused. The Hyena, Soldier, and Darkness were all against him, each wanting to take over his body and they would be perfectly satisfied to let only one of them do it if it at least attained the goal of pushing him out. Sobbing he leaned into Giles’ embrace when it was offered. The minute the older man had heard the shout he had dropped the phone and rushed over. “I can’t do it Giles, I just can’t hold on anymore.” The older man’s arms tightened around him trying to sooth him in a way that words could not.
“Xander, I know that the M’nut-A-min spoke to you and it worries you but you have to believe that you are not evil. Its not who you are.” Xander shook, burrowing his head deeper into the chest before him wanting to believe in the words but knowing they were not true. The creatures inside of him proved that. “Xander, look at me.” Hesitantly tortured brown eyes met sharp gray ones. “It could have spoken to any of us…” He was stopped by the shake of Xander’s head.
Biting down on his lip Xander whispered, “It is not just that he talked to me. He woke up something- some THINGS inside of me. You knew that the Hyena memories were not forgotten, and you also knew that she was not completely banished. Though you never told me that one.” Giles looked abashed at this statement. “But it gets worse, I know that for Buffy and Willow the Halloween debacle was not really any biggy, but that’s cause the noblewoman is part of who Buffy is. She’s a really big princess-y type person, and Willow stayed Willow throughout the entire thing but for me… It was still me yes but it was not at the same time. The soldier had memories, memories of doing terrible things that formed that person. He fed off a darkness that everyone has and fed back into it too. Giles’ I have four different people in my head and only one of them is the person you see. The rest, I just want them to go away but they’re part of me and they want me to just…” Giles let him drift off and held the young man as he keened out his misery. Berating himself for not helping sooner, berating himself for not seeing it sooner. They stayed like that until Buffy showed up in the early evening.
Walking into the Magic Box Buffy was confronted with the picture of her mentor calming her best friend. Well the only friend she had left right now with Willow being MIA and all. She wanted to know what had happened that had caused this cuddle fest but after her entrance they had both sprung apart Xander trying to wipe away the tear tracks that marked his face. She shot him a speculative glance. “Xander? Are you-“
“Yes Buff, I’m fine. Just needed to grieve a bit. Now I’m ready to go hunt some vampire butt!” Buffy smiled at him but looked worriedly at Giles, who merely cleared his throat and wiped his glasses. Xander bounced up and headed into the kitchen for a soda, shouting back if anyone wanted anything.
“It might be best if you two stick together. Last time Angelus all but ignored Xander. I don’t think he’ll make the same mistake this time around and I’ll be busy looking for an orb of Thessullah.” Buffy nodded and went to go help her patrol buddy demolish Giles’ sodas before they headed out.
Walking through another cemetery on their way to Willy’s Xander was stopped when Buffy suddenly shifted into a defensive stance in front of him. “I can sense a bunch of them.” She whispered and he shifted back, knowing she wanted him to get out of the way. Annoying how the Slayer still thought he couldn’t fight beside her. With a roar a hoard of vampires jumped from the surrounding foliage and from behind headstones and crypts. Drusilla laughed from where she stood, apparently Angelus’ stand in for the night. “The stars are giggling Slayer. They say they want to see blood.” And the minions lunged.
Email: Flamespout@hotmail.com
Website: Err… working on that
Distribution: Bigbadzeppo, Xanderslash, Vampyr_Slayerette_Passions, DarkSlash, I Need a Parrot
Notes: Um… Riley kinda disappeared… He’d technically still be in the infirmary and we’d technically be still dealing with Adam but I really don’t want to write around them so Poof! No more Iowa boy or Frankenstein!
Disclaimer: I do not own anyone here! I make no cash! No suing! Suing of the Kitti-chan is bad! Majorly not of the good! I would love to own Xan, Angelus, and my poor Wes but sadly I don’t (sigh). ~ I’d take better care of them then Joss did! Imagine making my Xan into a goofy sidekick and giving Angelus back that pussy soul and killing of my Wesley! I’m still mad about that one. ~
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Xander gritted his teeth as he listened to Buffy blubber to Giles about her love life. Forcing a goofy Xander-grin he spoke calmly to Giles while ignoring Buffy. “Sorry G-man but I’m gonna head home.” If you could call that lousy damp basement a home. “It’s been a hard day, I’ll give you a call tomorrow alright?” Not waiting for an answer he strode to the door, yanking it open and then slamming it shut behind him. Growling he walked towards his house. “Oh, Angel’s gone evil again!” He whined in an imitation of the inconsiderate blonde slayer, kicking a can that had the misfortune to be in his way. “I’m gonna have to stake him! He’s gonna try to kill me again! Oh Giles, Giles make it all better!” Giving the can one final kick he entered his basement apartment only to stop when he spotted Anya standing there holding something in her hand.
“Ahn, much as I enjoy the sex now’s a really bad time.” Xander sighed his eyes catching a hardening in his fuck-buddy’s eyes. Walking down the dilapidated stares the single male slayerette slumped into his fold out couch. “Something you want to say, sorry for the pissy mood I’ve just seen the eviscerated body of my ex.” Closing his eyes he leaned his head back against the couch and tried to pay attention to whatever annoying brash comments Anya would make today.
“I’m leaving.” She stated simply, feeling sorry for the mortal as his eyes snapped open and his head whipped around. It had to hurt.
“Leaving-leaving or going away until Angelus is dead/souled leaving?” The question was quiet but Anya had no trouble hearing it, holding up her power center she watched Xander’s face as understanding flashed across it. “Oh, so leaving-leaving it is.” Slumping down again he looked anywhere but at Anya, deciding to focus on a water stain in the far corner of his ceiling.
“Xander, I understand that you have a lot on your mind but I have to say this and I want you to listen. Being human was hard but you, besides the money, were the best part of it. Thank you for letting me know you, and for interlocking parts with me on a regular basis.” Nodding Anya disappeared in a flash so that the poor boy would not see the faint glimmer of tears in the vengeance demons eyes. Xander slumped farther into his couch wondering just how she had gotten her power center. When Willow had tried to retrieve it… Shit! Willow! She had not been at Giles so obviously she either had not gotten his call or had ignored it. Picking up a phone he hurriedly dialed the number at the dorm.
“C’mon, c’mon!” He mumbled pacing frantically and slamming the receiver down when no-one answered. “Damn it!” Running up the steps he did not both locking much less closing the door as he left the house. Racing to Stevenson hall he practically flew up the steps to Willow’s room. Knocking he bounced as he waited for an answer before throwing it open when he got none.
He was confronted by a spell circle, pieces of a shattered glass ball lying around the room and Tara’s drained body tossed carelessly to the side. “NO!” He shouted wondering why no one looked in to see what was the matter with him. Giving him a few minutes to collect himself he lifted up the phone and dialed a number. “Sunnydale police? I’d like to report a murder…”
Xander spent several hours at the police station and while it had been late afternoon when he got in there it was definitely early morning when he left. After giving them a full report of what he had seen and what he suspected, carefully editing the ‘undead psycho’ pieces out. He had called Giles to give him a ride and the ex-librarian refused to drop him off at his house. Lying in a couch by the research table to young man drifted while his mentor searched desperately for an Orb of Thessulah since the one he had in stock had been smashed when Willow had been abducted. His other personalities were howling to get out, literally howling in the hyena’s case, and he needed to focus his energy inward instead of focusing on the outside world. Giles left him alone believing that he needed time to grieve, which the older man was holding off on until Angelus was contained. Buffy was going to attend her college classes because Giles had convinced her that was where her responsibility lay at the moment. Angelus would be dealt with in time it was no reason to let her grades lapse. Plus there was not much hunting she could do for Angelus in the day, when he would be hiding from the sun’s rays. Minions would too so that wasn’t a way to get any information and Willy the snitch… Images filled Xander’s head-
**Rending the flesh from the bartenders bones**
**Crushing his hand into a pulp**
**Poking out his eyes**
**Blindfolding him and grilling him for information, punishing him when disappointed**
**Expertly pressing pressure points as he screamed for mercy**
**Shooting him repeatedly**
**Ripping out his tongue**
**Eating his heart**
“NO!” Xander flung himself out of his stupor shuddering from the sensations that those visions had caused. The Hyena, Soldier, and Darkness were all against him, each wanting to take over his body and they would be perfectly satisfied to let only one of them do it if it at least attained the goal of pushing him out. Sobbing he leaned into Giles’ embrace when it was offered. The minute the older man had heard the shout he had dropped the phone and rushed over. “I can’t do it Giles, I just can’t hold on anymore.” The older man’s arms tightened around him trying to sooth him in a way that words could not.
“Xander, I know that the M’nut-A-min spoke to you and it worries you but you have to believe that you are not evil. Its not who you are.” Xander shook, burrowing his head deeper into the chest before him wanting to believe in the words but knowing they were not true. The creatures inside of him proved that. “Xander, look at me.” Hesitantly tortured brown eyes met sharp gray ones. “It could have spoken to any of us…” He was stopped by the shake of Xander’s head.
Biting down on his lip Xander whispered, “It is not just that he talked to me. He woke up something- some THINGS inside of me. You knew that the Hyena memories were not forgotten, and you also knew that she was not completely banished. Though you never told me that one.” Giles looked abashed at this statement. “But it gets worse, I know that for Buffy and Willow the Halloween debacle was not really any biggy, but that’s cause the noblewoman is part of who Buffy is. She’s a really big princess-y type person, and Willow stayed Willow throughout the entire thing but for me… It was still me yes but it was not at the same time. The soldier had memories, memories of doing terrible things that formed that person. He fed off a darkness that everyone has and fed back into it too. Giles’ I have four different people in my head and only one of them is the person you see. The rest, I just want them to go away but they’re part of me and they want me to just…” Giles let him drift off and held the young man as he keened out his misery. Berating himself for not helping sooner, berating himself for not seeing it sooner. They stayed like that until Buffy showed up in the early evening.
Walking into the Magic Box Buffy was confronted with the picture of her mentor calming her best friend. Well the only friend she had left right now with Willow being MIA and all. She wanted to know what had happened that had caused this cuddle fest but after her entrance they had both sprung apart Xander trying to wipe away the tear tracks that marked his face. She shot him a speculative glance. “Xander? Are you-“
“Yes Buff, I’m fine. Just needed to grieve a bit. Now I’m ready to go hunt some vampire butt!” Buffy smiled at him but looked worriedly at Giles, who merely cleared his throat and wiped his glasses. Xander bounced up and headed into the kitchen for a soda, shouting back if anyone wanted anything.
“It might be best if you two stick together. Last time Angelus all but ignored Xander. I don’t think he’ll make the same mistake this time around and I’ll be busy looking for an orb of Thessullah.” Buffy nodded and went to go help her patrol buddy demolish Giles’ sodas before they headed out.
Walking through another cemetery on their way to Willy’s Xander was stopped when Buffy suddenly shifted into a defensive stance in front of him. “I can sense a bunch of them.” She whispered and he shifted back, knowing she wanted him to get out of the way. Annoying how the Slayer still thought he couldn’t fight beside her. With a roar a hoard of vampires jumped from the surrounding foliage and from behind headstones and crypts. Drusilla laughed from where she stood, apparently Angelus’ stand in for the night. “The stars are giggling Slayer. They say they want to see blood.” And the minions lunged.
