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Feb. 1st, 2011 12:12 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
kat8chaThe problem, Roy decides, is that he knows. He's too broken to hope anymore, too broken to dream when he knows it is all lies. So every time he gets *just* high enough, every time he sees Lian (and not the Lian who told him to kill people he knew that wasn't her) and reaches for her (sometimes with one arm sometimes with two) something happens and the dream breaks. It reminds him of fighting the Gargoyle with the Titans only a few years ago, where the dream centered villain 'regressed' them and posed as their parents.
That's why this villain's attack (do they count as villains anymore when Roy is the villain) is easy to shrug off. He knows that Lian is dead and that he'll never hold her, hug her, brush her hair or tuck her into bed. He'll never promise that 'next time' he'll pick her up from school because there will be no next time. He will always regret those precious moments of her life lost because of his selfishness.
But he knows he won't get them back.
"Time to end the dream." Roy says to himself as he plunges the knife into Dreamscape's withered body. The psychic doesn't even scream, just curls forward and slumps to the side.
Deathstroke claps a hand on Roy's shoulder and it fills Roy with… something. Roy used to worry about Dick and Deathstroke's weird relationship, but maybe now he can finally understand a little of it. Maybe he wasn't broken enough before. "I knew you'd take care of that. Ready to go, Arsenal?"
In the other room the rest of the team struggles to their feet, one of them still sobbing at the loss of the dream. Roy'd put his money on it being Osiris.
Deathstroke hadn't even been on the ground when Roy broke free of the dream. He'd already been off doing whatever mission it was Slade had come here to do. (Which was not what he had told the Titans to do.) Roy is sure he can guess at what Slade would have dreamed of, he's met Joey and Rose and they're both sweet kids.
"Ready."
It's not easy to let go of the past, and Roy doubts he ever will, but he knows he'll never get it back, just like he knows that no matter what drugs he does he will always feel the pain.
That's why this villain's attack (do they count as villains anymore when Roy is the villain) is easy to shrug off. He knows that Lian is dead and that he'll never hold her, hug her, brush her hair or tuck her into bed. He'll never promise that 'next time' he'll pick her up from school because there will be no next time. He will always regret those precious moments of her life lost because of his selfishness.
But he knows he won't get them back.
"Time to end the dream." Roy says to himself as he plunges the knife into Dreamscape's withered body. The psychic doesn't even scream, just curls forward and slumps to the side.
Deathstroke claps a hand on Roy's shoulder and it fills Roy with… something. Roy used to worry about Dick and Deathstroke's weird relationship, but maybe now he can finally understand a little of it. Maybe he wasn't broken enough before. "I knew you'd take care of that. Ready to go, Arsenal?"
In the other room the rest of the team struggles to their feet, one of them still sobbing at the loss of the dream. Roy'd put his money on it being Osiris.
Deathstroke hadn't even been on the ground when Roy broke free of the dream. He'd already been off doing whatever mission it was Slade had come here to do. (Which was not what he had told the Titans to do.) Roy is sure he can guess at what Slade would have dreamed of, he's met Joey and Rose and they're both sweet kids.
"Ready."
It's not easy to let go of the past, and Roy doubts he ever will, but he knows he'll never get it back, just like he knows that no matter what drugs he does he will always feel the pain.
